Guh....

... I hate when Jake is out of town.

There are good things that come of it, though. I hung out with Heather a lot today and got to meet some cool friends of hers. That girl Sarah is a "kindred spirit", fo sho.

I love heather and having girl time, but when it comes down to it, my husband is my best friend. He is my favorite person to spend time with, and without him I get either bummed or crazy.... although the craziness tonight might have been from the massive amounts of caffiene I had today. Coffee is just so good!

School is looking pretty good this semester. I have one more test, which shouldn't be too bad, probably a take-home final or two, and then just need to finish my survey and put the rest of a paper together, which should take all of an hour, maybe.

God has blessed me so much: from the huge things, like letting me find and spend my life with such a wonderful man and giving me the strength to finish school, to little things like meeting cool people and getting a good parking spot tonight.

Which reminds me, there are cops all over the apartment complex tonight... good thing I sleep with mace on my bedside table. :)

Eek. If no one hears from me for a few days, it might be best to come look around the apartment for signs of forced entry. Don't look at the mess, though. I pick up after myself, but I am NOT cleaning up Mike and Amy's mess, no matter how much I want a clean house.

On that note, I'm off to find socks for my poor leetle feetsies, because I have no warm hubby in bed tonight to stick them on.

Ha, poor kid.

h'okay, so.

I should be doing homework right now....

And in my procrastination, here comes a blog!

I've noticed that this blog is rather bipolar... i tend to only write in it when i'm either very happy or very bummed. I'm usually pretty even keeled, so reading this thing is a bit odd for me.

But anyway, update on life:

I have three huge assignments due tomorrow: a lab report for Marine Science that's a huge part of my grade, a methods paper for Methods of Research thats an even bigger part of my grade, and a crazy long test in Tests and Measurements that is something like a quarter of my grade in that class.
Now let me say, while I appreciate these teacher's motives in trying to get things out of the way so that we can have a relaxing Thanksgiving weekend, I do not appreciate that all of my teachers did this at once. So tomorrow (Monday) after 1:30pm I'll be thrilled... but until then, not so much.

I think i'm behind in my Methods class, but i'm not sure, because the teacher is crazy and no one in the class knows whats going on. I think that I maybe should have turned in my lit review already, but no one else has, the teacher hasn't said anything, and the syllabus is all off, anyway.

That's the only class that i'm worried about my grade in.... the others should be pretty good, i think.

The play is over (for which I truly praise God from the bottom of my heart), but auditions for Fiddler happen the week we come back from Thanksgiving. I still don't know what I want to do. Should I audition and be responsible for that much time away from my studies and Jake, or should I just do tech work, which I love, and spend as much time, but not away from Jake?
This is my last semester in school, the last play i'll likely be involved with. I love theatre, but it isn't the thing I'm most passionate about. My family is much more important to me.... Plays will come and go, but my relationship with Jake will last our whole lives. Is it wrong that i'd rather work on that?
It would be nice to sing and dance and learn more, though.

I'm so confused! and I'm terrified of auditioning. I know i'm good, but if i think that they think I suck, it bothers me a lot, and i immediately dont do as well. I'm dumb.

H'okay, so. I need to get back to homework. I'm a time waster, though... and i don't like working on stupid stuff.

I wish I were more interested in my major.... eek.

While I'm at it,

Brief Update:

-Theatre will be over in 1 week and 3 days.
Unfortunately, I'm thrilled.

-Jake is out of town, and it's our year-a-versary. :(

-I came home from theatre tonight to find a giant bouquet outside my door.

-My husband is absolutely the best ever, and I miss him terribly.

-This week semester has been very hard all around, but I am very definitely learning my strengths and weaknesses.

-I'm physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. Two more weekends, though, and more will be right with the world.

-Jake comes home on Friday!!

-I'm going to try to do the right thing right now, and go to sleep. Wish me luck. Bed is very different without a husband to snuggle with/smother/accidentally kick all night.