h'okay, so.

I should be doing homework right now....

And in my procrastination, here comes a blog!

I've noticed that this blog is rather bipolar... i tend to only write in it when i'm either very happy or very bummed. I'm usually pretty even keeled, so reading this thing is a bit odd for me.

But anyway, update on life:

I have three huge assignments due tomorrow: a lab report for Marine Science that's a huge part of my grade, a methods paper for Methods of Research thats an even bigger part of my grade, and a crazy long test in Tests and Measurements that is something like a quarter of my grade in that class.
Now let me say, while I appreciate these teacher's motives in trying to get things out of the way so that we can have a relaxing Thanksgiving weekend, I do not appreciate that all of my teachers did this at once. So tomorrow (Monday) after 1:30pm I'll be thrilled... but until then, not so much.

I think i'm behind in my Methods class, but i'm not sure, because the teacher is crazy and no one in the class knows whats going on. I think that I maybe should have turned in my lit review already, but no one else has, the teacher hasn't said anything, and the syllabus is all off, anyway.

That's the only class that i'm worried about my grade in.... the others should be pretty good, i think.

The play is over (for which I truly praise God from the bottom of my heart), but auditions for Fiddler happen the week we come back from Thanksgiving. I still don't know what I want to do. Should I audition and be responsible for that much time away from my studies and Jake, or should I just do tech work, which I love, and spend as much time, but not away from Jake?
This is my last semester in school, the last play i'll likely be involved with. I love theatre, but it isn't the thing I'm most passionate about. My family is much more important to me.... Plays will come and go, but my relationship with Jake will last our whole lives. Is it wrong that i'd rather work on that?
It would be nice to sing and dance and learn more, though.

I'm so confused! and I'm terrified of auditioning. I know i'm good, but if i think that they think I suck, it bothers me a lot, and i immediately dont do as well. I'm dumb.

H'okay, so. I need to get back to homework. I'm a time waster, though... and i don't like working on stupid stuff.

I wish I were more interested in my major.... eek.